Wish You Could Do Over??

My heart immediately utters “Uhmmm…Maybe” 🙂

Honestly, I wouldn’t do over any moments in my life. If I had a choice, I would love to live my life over again. I won’t do it to correct the wrong decisions I made. I won’t do it because I want to change some moments out of it. I will live my life only to savor every moment in between.

We never realize how important it is to live every moment and to make every moment count. We always think that the future is yet to come and it will just be tomorrow…that we’ll always have enough time to do the right things.

In yester years, there were times wherein I lacked the maturity and understanding to do few things differently. Do I wish I could have skipped it? Maybe, utters my heart. But if I did, I probably would not be as mature or wise now as I am having experienced that mistake. If I knew then what I know now, then I would not have known it now.

Yes, there have been moments where I have thought “Shit, shitty, shit!” (still do) and today also there are “I could’ve/ should’ve/ would’ve…” moments which I try not to utter (whether or not I think about them is another story :)). But I would never want a ‘do over’ as it’s those points in my life that really helped to define me as a person that I am today. What doesn’t kill only makes you stronger (~ Friedrich Nietschze) and I fully believe in it.

I live with my mistakes, I don’t love them, but these scars make me who I am and they also make me less likely to make them in the future. My beliefs lead to me to believe, everything has happened in my life for a good reason.

Somewhere in the past there have been situations that did not go as well as expected. And maybe I wish to go back to that time and state my intentions around those situations…not to change anything, just to relive it simply to experience the joy all over again. See if it is a ball of knots. But “Careful what you wish for?” is definetly a motto to I live by, because changing a point in life could do just that – change life!

(But…uhmm…maybe if I had not encircled Option C as the answer in a Maths test and I realize now that the correct option was D. Damn. If only…!!)

I feel blessed and enjoy my life at present because I learnt a lesson back then and grew because of it. I would take more chances instead of playing it safe, stop worrying so much and instead of focusing on what other people thought about me, be at peace with who I am and think for myself.

No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Life educates us in its own bizzare but allusive ways but everything that happens eventually turns out to be a blessing in disguise. As corny as it may sound, but yeah, that is the truth. So there is a wish, but no will to carry it out.